This is a very confusing time for me. I'm seriously in love yet, I feel as if I shouldn't be. My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost six months now. And yet, my body yearns for attention, and he's not giving it to me. It's not his fault however, between my chorus show rehearsals and his job we don't get to spend adaquate time with one another. But I am in constant need of physical attention. Now all of a sudden I'm fantasising about other guys. I feel awful and dirty. I wake up wanting to beat the shit out of myself for the betrayal I know my mind is going to do. Sometimes its torture to be in love.